Bad Mommy :(

I feel like the worst mom ever today! I called the doctor this morning about Eli's cold and scheduled an appointment for this afternoon. I took him in, and she took one look at him, and said, "Wow, he's one sick little boy!" He was just lying lifelessly on my lap. I knew that it wasn't good when she started listening to his lungs because she listened, listened, listened, and listened some more. Normally it's a pretty quick procedure, but this time, she took forever. He had fluid on his lungs, and he wasn't saturing oxygen very well. They did a breathing treatment in the office, and said that he needs to do his at-home treatments every four hours. He's on the verge on pneumonia, but she wants to try to treat it at home first with the nebulizer.

As if that wasn't bad enough, then she looked in his ears. As soon as she looked in there, she said, "Oh my gosh, that's terrible!" She let me look in there and his ear was flaming red and the ear drum was bulging. She said that I needed to get some strong antibiotics in him quick because his ear drum was about to rupture. He has a double infection, but the right ear is really severe.

She kept assuring me that it wasn't my fault for waiting so long- she said that ears can change within the course of hours, but still I felt awful for not bringing him in sooner.

You want to know what the kicker is?? I called to get him appointment before he woke up this morning. When he did wake up and I went in to get him, he was in a great mood. Smiling, laughing, acting fairly normal. He ate breakfast, played with Owen, and acted like he was feeling much better. I *almost* called and canceled the appointment because I thought that he must be getting better. Boy am I glad that didn't!

Please say a prayer that Eli responds quickly to the antibiotics so that his ear drum doesn't rupture.